29th September 2022

Almost certainly now the United Kingdom Federal Buruea of Investigation will be launched. When I call upon West Midlands Police they will certainly fail to hold HB Housing Limited, Sajid Hussain, Birmingham City Council and other players to account and thus when I again appeal to Birmingham City Council through Preet Gill almost certainly Birmingham City Council shall continue to victim blame and defame and protect the abusers.

Launching UKFBI is a way forward but with terrible cost. Right now one of those costs is my mental health. Yesterday I self harmed and struggled with overeating and poor dietary choices as well struggling with exhaustion and suicidal struggles, among other things. 

I continue to create and update UKFBI related files and I purchased an appropriate domain some time ago for uploading said documents to.

 I wrote this a few days ago and I suppose it is somewhat poetic.

The Courage of our times is prefaced by unshakeable doubt

The revelation of mouth is born out of incredible confusion

Our walks are pure only when considered: a nature observed

Yet we plot and talk and make merry politics

For ill or for gain?; For growth or for pain?

As we bellow and swine to delay talk of the end

Do we wilt honestly to portray the truth known to ears?

 In one of today's Babylon 5 episodes.

"May god stand between you and harm in all the empty places you must walk." -Ancient Egyptian Blessing

 I stand before a crossroads.

 9/5

Eyes tired. Body tired. Briefly ended hunger strike so I have energy for Saturday's teaching which is still long way off. Thinking of taking a new vow of silence in protest of humanity's filth. No word from friends today. Day and night of silence instead. Filmed Joshina video but too afraid to send. Saj's lies causing intense panic and fear of him creaeting more; feel like I need to do something else to try and cope with pain. Will be cutting myself within days, I think. Started email to Preet Gill. Wanted shower today but has not happened. Washed two white tshirts. Laptop did not succesfully resume from hibernation so I had to start from beginning. All work seems to have been recovered.

It scares me the ease with which I was able to stop eating for days. I have been in a state of depression and emptiness for most of my life.

 8/5/2022

The starvation continues with no end in sight. Saj, HB Housing and the others are still yet to apologise and confess to crimes.

I intended to film my final plea to Joshina today but was unable to.

need to do video on why "hunger strike" and why truth matters

new Doctor Who declared.

 

21/4/2022

I really feel as though I am surrending to the glare of the gallows.

All being well the Birmingham 10K will remain scheduled for May this year! I will be running in memory of my dearest friend, Alice. A beautiful soul whom we miss so terribly.

If you would like to sponsor me, you are welcome to :) Warm wishes are also always welcome, of any kind!

 https://www.justgiving.com/fundraising/barry-stuart1

 Some of the battles continuing in 2022:

-Build RF and open the studio and expand charitable concepts/expressions for my projects dedicated to the loving memory of Alice and for her family

-Prosecute United Kingdom government and allies for attempted murder in fourth degree (Mental duress/encouragement of suicide.) with related projects and getting fourth degree murder onto the law books. Find lawyers and campaigners to help with this. Try contacting Liberty for a third time?

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 Potential scammer

Area: Dawlish road, Birmingham

First name: Samara.

Bank: Natwest.

More details will be published and reported if it transpires that she was indeed, without a doubt, scamming and abusing me. For now, just keep a look out, especially on Facebook Marketplace, for anyone going by the name "Samara," claiming to live in Birmingham and giving you bank details that reference Natwest. I have just confirmed, through a simple cursory search, that her sort code corresponds to a Natwest Branch in Harborne, Birmingham. This does not mean that she is indeed living in Birmingham, only that the account was opened there. For now, the situation still remains very much unclear and I fear a scam has been waged against me and our community.

 Another day, another abuse?

Have I been taken advantage of yet again?

I fear so. I innocently lent money to someone on Facebook after I arranged to gift them free cat food through Facebook Marketplace. £31. But that is not the price of my innocence. The cost lies in the horrible sense of betrayal, me repeatedly getting dressed to meet her at her house for a promised "thank you dinner," walking the wet Dawlish Road for her "dropped" bank card and all the rest. It's the emotional conviction I bore and still bear, how she, if she is indeed scamming me, disregarded that, heck, preyed upon it. Abusers sicken me. I hope I am wrong and there is not yet another demon among me but humans are so fickle and weak I really would not be surprised.